1 Syawal 1430 H

The Smoke You Caught By Hand

"I can't feel my past, they're surreal to me. They're like these moments attached to my brain but my heart didn't really remember living. Like a sound clip or a filmstrip, flashes of movies in a digital player without a remote control."

Shot by sachyn@sxc.hu

A Long Sigh

You see, life is like the biggest joker ever, a bad one, if one might add. It gives you unexpected turns, sudden rush of motions, and stupid surprises. Life is like this fuckin smarty-ass, which actually knows everything but picks smiling instead of telling, simply cause it wants to see you dropping your jaw once you end up with a dead end. As a friend, life kinda sucks. Yes, it dances with you when you're happy, but it doesn't give even the slightest crap when things turn upside down.
Life is a huge bully, you have to go with its rules, no options, no buts.

By the way this is estrogen typing. Over and out.

Humbug

I just took a listen to Arctic Monkey's newest album, Humbug.


Their music is... different, compared to their previous albums. Slower tempo, less upbeat tunes, and lyrically, less intriguing yet still twisted. Still got a special thrill for this band, though some of the new songs don't really fit my ears the way their previous songs do. Well they evolve, I guess.

Alex Tuner now and then. Feel any difference?

Look at Alex and his half covered face, also Jamie with his beard and new hairdo. They've grown even older.
Anyways I love these shots, the tone and lighting are simply pretty.

Take a listen too!
Cool Tracks : Cornerstone, Potion Approaching, Crying Lightning.

She was close,
And she held me very tightly
Till I asked awfully politely,
"Please, can I call you her name?"
Cornerstone/Arctic Monkeys

The Scattered iTunes Library

Yang namanya minta maaf itu harusnya dibarengin sama keinginan untuk membuat keadaan lebih baik. You don't go around telling people "I just burned your house down, sorry. Why, you ask? Well just because I want to." right? It's pointless, it's asking the other person to put up with what you're doing without considering the fact whether he/she wants to or not. It's selfish. If that's the case, save your words for yourself, cause deep down inside you actually ignore what that other person feels, and in the end it doesn't really matter for you whether the answer to that "Sorry" is a yes or a no. Go ahead, be selfish, but just please stop putting that mask to make yourself feel better. I won't buy it.

Fives

5 things you think about yourself
Accurate way?
Lyrical, shy, independent, passionate, laid back
Emo way?
Sensitive, moody, longing, loner, loving.
Narcissistic way?
Creative, good listener, self-learner, kind, ...uncommon?

5 things that you do
Stupid things that made you in accident?
Nothing really
The most extreme thing you do?
Trying to slit my skin just to see how deep i can go haha
Something you regret in life?
Not having any particular extracurricular stuff mastered
Your current goal in life?
Got myself into certain college major
Your quote/motto of the day that you do?
"Words are just empty letters"

5 things about your appearance
Which body part you like?
Fingers? haha
Which body part you dislike?
My thighs and calves
Acne problem?
Fortunately nothing serious
If you have a tattoo, where will you put it?
One side of my neck, like Pete's hehe
Fetish?
Nothing really

5 more things about you
Currently likes?
Cereal with cold chocolate milk
Currently dislike?
The weather
Weakness?
Sloth
Ability?
Enduring loneliness
Extra ability?
Err, i can wiggle my ears?

Your 5 confession?
I dance to almost every beat when I'm around my sister
I think my voice doesn't sound so bad when I sing
I have issues with self-confidence
I'm always interested in things related to suicide
I have plenty of very unbelievable confessions left but I'm saving it for my true friend. Ha.

Live Among The Gorillas

Ted : ...It's like I'm trying to preserve something that's already gone
Marshall : Preserving something that's already gone. Sounds like environmental law.
Ted : I don't know. We struggle so hard to hold on to these things that we know are going to disappear eventually. And that's really noble. But even if you save every rain forest from being turned into a parking lot, well, then where are you going to park your car?

How I Met Your Mother, S01E17

Oh Well

How am I doing these days?
Nothing much, really.

• I'm okay.
• My feet touches the ground.
• I eat a lot, four times a day sometimes, not to mention the sodas and the teas.
• Mostly I pay attention in classes.
• I sign in rather a lot to WLM.
• I read people's tweets when I'm bored.
• I constantly find myself craving for frozen yogurt and sushi, but having difficulties in fulfilling it.
• My recently played song is most likely be Lenka's
  
• My cursing is getting worse by days and I'm trying to fix it.
• I try to just be impulsive cause apparently, it feels good.
  

How are you?

A Tearaway

The thing about a heartbreak is that, of course, it hurts. The tears may run dry, but the pain, stays. There will be a time when the only thing that walks you to your sleep is your tear. But then you'll wake up in the middle of the night, and the first thing that crosses your mind and heart will be the pain, again. Then it'll be hard for you to get back to sleep, cause your brain is busy playing your certain pieces of memory with a certain person constantly be the center of the scene. That's when your heart aches, a lot. You started to cry again, just so your eyes will be weary enough to get you back to sleep.

Then the morning comes... It may be hard for you to get up, to face the day differently, independently. Maybe your tears will come out again, so will the pain. You're hurt, and emotionally left with no options.

You'll try to start to build a part of your so-called little world back. There will be a moment when it feels like the pieces are finally completing each other, but it'll only take a second, a smile of a certain someone that your brain flashes you, for it to fall right apart again. Then you'll start from scratch, over and over again.

You're in such a pain, everything aches. You share with your friends, but that’s just as far as how it can get. You don’t really spill the core of your heart out, simply cause you don’t think they’ll understand how much it aches. They give you hugs, but only a very few feels real. You waited till your day’s done to cry, cause they expect you to get better. You’re trying, but it doesn’t get you too far.

Erasing every little trace of the memory seems impossible, and you're not sure whether you can do it. You’re trapped, you can’t seem to let go, but to keep on holding to every bit of the past hurts too much. You want things to go back to the way they used to, but you’re not sure if it’s worth fighting for, not if it will end with the same pain as it does right until this second.

It’s your first cut, it’s the deepest. It’s not a breakup, it's a heartbreak.

Everything Will Be Okay

Sorry for not being around, I'm busy building a huge tall wall that keeps on collapsing over and over again each time I catch a breath--thinking at last it's completely build.

Diving deep, I'll write more when the sun greets me.

Have a nice day :-)