Dear Diary,

I don't have anything beautiful to write.
I kind of miss the point of writing. It's hard to be honest these days.

And They Said The Questions Were Simple

What change do you want to see in your personal life - right now?
I want more friends, more people to have an actual conversation with. I want to taste liberty, practice independence, and speak inspiration.

What change do you want to see in your community & country by 2015?
Less car, more pedestrians and people with bicycle. People will smile to random strangers they meet on street. Schools won't push the students to run merely for scores and the students will be mature and open-minded enough to complement the system. Adults won't lose their sense of humor and teenagers will keep themselves posted with the news because they know it's important. Local TV series won't suck as bad as today and more people will listen to The Beatles.

What sort of programmes or ideas of campaigns would you support?
Generally, any program that leads toward good changes, revolution if possible.
Specially, programs that help people realize how big the role of love in our lives is, the ones that help people rediscover the art of being happy, and the art of laughing.

I Don't Know Why I Post This

Today I met him at the corridor. I was alone and so was he. We made an eye contact, but I chose to stay silent. After several steps which gradually cut our distance, he greeted me. I didn't know whether he smiled or not, I didn't wear my glasses.

Using a split second as effective as possible, I chose to respond it. As cold as I could. So I just put my hand up, covering half my face from the side. I didn't smile, I didn't say a word. I passed by. And that was pretty much it.

What bothers me is that I can't stop thinking about it. No, not in an I-want-him-back kind of way, not in a omg-my-crush-says-hi-to-me kind of way, not even in a can-we-really-be-friends? kind of way. My thinking is twisted, it's complex, I don't know.

Is this what having a past is? Forgive and forget totally sound like bullshit right now. I've stopped holding on to cliches, they don't work on me. It was stupid how I thought I'd have one of those clean break ups with him, how I tried to remain friends with all the acts and whatnot. I mean, look at what happened.

Really, this is not me caring about what's happening on the other side. I'm worried about me, worried that his stain can't be entirely gone--which is what I'm working on. I want this completely out of me, but see what those stupid seconds do to me.

This is annoying. I want to be done dealing with this. Ass.

Get The Joke?

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...If you do then visit Toothpaste for Dinner :--DD

To Fifteen Fine Names

Write 15 things that you want to say to 15 different people, one for each. It could be a confession, an opinion, a thought, anything. However, you can't write something you already confessed or something you already said, it has to be something new. Tell them which is whom if you want to, but you don't have to.

In this post (in random order) :
Rizka Dwi Putri, Mutiara Ramadhiani, Istina Dwi P, Hartsaniya, Rachmat Lianda, Andika Chaktiaji Z, Naila Rahmania, Ferinda P Lestari, Farah Nabila, Rizka Ratmilia, Prathito A Wisambodhi, Tika Meutia Lubis, Torik Danumaya, Osha Adyancha, Nasya Daniya Marhani

1. I wish we could have a heart-to-heart talk without having to be awkward about it. I've made several attempts but so far none succeeded.
   
2. I love talking and sharing something personal with you cause you always have something good to say, something far from the typical "Sabar ya,", something that makes sense, something that I need to hear.
3. What I see is, you're pretty. Even when you say you're having a bad hair day. It's funny how you not even slightly think that you are. But I guess that's also what makes you pretty.
4. Sometimes I feel like you don't pay enough attention to what I'm saying. But nonetheless, for me you're still my best friend, a nice person to talk to, and the one I'll turn to when something big, good or bad, is happening to me.
5. It's amazing that no matter how cheesy a story is, as long as you laugh when it's told, it counts as a good one. That's how great your laugh is.
6. You're unique, and your uniqueness is the kind of unique I like. And it's cool how you managed to keep it that way.
7. I think you're probably a genius. If yes, it's awesome how someone can be genius and witty at the same time.
8. I have faith in you, I know you'll be great whatever it is that you're doing. So don't mind their sayings, go for your dream.
9. I love the way you talk and write. I think you're cool and I like it how sharing something unfortunate with you can be so fun.
10. Somehow I miss how close we used to be. I want to share stories with you but our current distance kinda hold me back from telling literally everything.
    
11. I never know I can be friends with you. Hanging out with you gives me a different kind of fun.
12. I did feel bad. But however I don't regret doing what I did cause talking and joking the way we do now is so much better than how things were before. You're great.
13. The way you are is funny. It makes me feel like I have to be dependable when you're around.
14. What you say is rarely what I want to hear. But I like being your friend, and I like it how what you type always sounds so friendly.
15. Seeing you makes me feel optimistic in a weird way. I feel like if you can get there, so can I. The thought of you getting there first is annoying, but it makes me run faster.
    

Which one is yours?

Ten to One

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to People
1. "Oh kabar gue juga baik, gue di stei itb sekarang hehe lo?"
2. "I'm on the subway, will meet you up in five."
3. "Hey wanna meet up and just talk? Great. Yeah, the usual place. Is eight good? Nice. Okay, bye~"
4. "Your outfit is ugly."
5. "You're so gay."
6. "Your loss, not mine."
7. "Lo liat muka gue. Ada ga gue peduli?"
8. "I brought my car, don't worry about me."
9. "I'm going shopping. This client at work is impossible."
10. "You just made the biggest mistake of your life. You'll regret it."

Nine things about myself
1. I can't stand songs with low bit-rate. They're irritating.
2. I can't cook but I'd love to learn how to.
3. In a hurry, it only take me approximately 3 minutes to get ready to go out.
4. I have weird fascination over Vaseline's petroleum jelly.
5. I wanna try staying at an apartment by myself for a few months.
6. I don't mind going out by myself. No, actually I like it.
7. I really really want to redecorate my room.
8. I want to live abroad.
9. I pick chocolate milk over the plain one.

Eight ways to win my heart
1. Have cool taste of music.
2. Count loose long talks at a coffee shop as a precious moment.
3. Ask me on a random day out, wherever, doing nothing. And make it fun.
4. Have sushi and frozen yogurt with me.
5. Write something for or about me.
6. Surprise me with something nice, and sweet.
7. Cook something that's meant only for me.
8. Tell me something that you know about me that I don't know you do know.

Seven things that cross my mind a lot:
1. Usm itb and other uni exams.
2. My weight.
3. Marshall Eriksen.
4. Tweeting and blogging.
5. Cola.
6. Frozen yogurt.
7. Me.

Six things I do before I fall asleep
1. Salat al 'Isha.
2. Wash my face, sometimes brush my teeth.
3. Prepare school's stuff for tomorrow.
4. Turn the lights off.
5. Stare at the ceiling.
6. Listen to music.

Five places I want to visit
1. New York.
2. German.
3. McLaren's Bar.
4. Beach in winter.
5. My future home.

Four things I'm wearing right now
1. White tee.
2. Black shorts.
3. Green sandals.
4. Undies.

Three bands that I listen to often (Currently)
1. The Beatles.
2. Arctic Monkeys.
3. The 88.

Two things I want to do before I die
1. Make a big career achievement.
2. Build a beautiful house with my partner somewhere sweet.

One confession
1. Usually I hate sharing earphones, it limits my space of movements.

What Sounds Easy When It Actually Isn't

You have to know when to stop. When to stop giving a crap.
It's when something won't do you any good, if not eating you slowly alive.
It's when something is none of your business and getting involved won't offer you any benefits anyway.
It's when something is a lot less important than what you actually hold in hands--but you're too busy giving a crap to recognise it.
It's when you're carried away by your emotions and inevitably losing touch with being logical.
It's when keeping your thought to yourself is not that easy.
It's when you're not in control of your own happiness and wrath and you're not even aware of that.
It's that stupid thing you hardheadedly hold on to though the world screams "LET IT GO!" to you, in caps lock.

"Other far more exciting stuffs are on their way.They're getting there. As soon as they can.
Be patient please."

Shot by Rachmat Lianda

Some Days Are Just Different

Since I'm a big fan of pictures, I'll leave you with some.

The best thing about this trip is the perfect timing. Stresses are out and I'm ready for school (but not midterm), people's faces starting to be blurry anyways, got to see them soon!
And hey, how's your holiday?

Credit for the pretty ones goes to Rachmat Lianda

A Quick Hi

Hey I just got back from a short trip abroad. Was having an awesome time, feet-tiring miles of walk, the best salmon teriyaki so far, and not to forget the stress-relieving paper bags :-3 But more on that later.

I went to buy a cake for my 23-year-old brother earlier tonight.

Wishing him a splendid 24th year of life before 30th September comes up. Have a nice one, Brah.

I'd like to keep on but this got to be short cause I'm having a bit of neck situation here. Tilting my head is not that easy right now, pffh. Well anyways, have a nice end of September people!

P.S. Will type more soon :-)

An Old Draft?

It's silly how people build up their own set, plot the story as how they see it will met up with their ego best. Putting people here and there as this and that so that the story will be dramatic enough to color their life, so that the "Finally" they're pursuing after will look beautiful and, I don't know, maybe good enough?

Okay. Enjoy your happy ending, be thankful for it, whatever. But you know what? How you tell your story all over town is not okay. Don't you feel it? Your lines are an insult. It's like crying "Oh no my ass is so biggg~," in front of someone who weigh twice--or maybe thrice--you do, except it's far much worse. Stop creating twists for your own satisfaction, if you only wanna be one of The Goods then don't even bother starting a story.

And no, don't ever, ever, ever again say that you've tried these shoes. It's an even bigger insult.

1 Syawal 1430 H

The Smoke You Caught By Hand

"I can't feel my past, they're surreal to me. They're like these moments attached to my brain but my heart didn't really remember living. Like a sound clip or a filmstrip, flashes of movies in a digital player without a remote control."

Shot by sachyn@sxc.hu

A Long Sigh

You see, life is like the biggest joker ever, a bad one, if one might add. It gives you unexpected turns, sudden rush of motions, and stupid surprises. Life is like this fuckin smarty-ass, which actually knows everything but picks smiling instead of telling, simply cause it wants to see you dropping your jaw once you end up with a dead end. As a friend, life kinda sucks. Yes, it dances with you when you're happy, but it doesn't give even the slightest crap when things turn upside down.
Life is a huge bully, you have to go with its rules, no options, no buts.

By the way this is estrogen typing. Over and out.

Humbug

I just took a listen to Arctic Monkey's newest album, Humbug.


Their music is... different, compared to their previous albums. Slower tempo, less upbeat tunes, and lyrically, less intriguing yet still twisted. Still got a special thrill for this band, though some of the new songs don't really fit my ears the way their previous songs do. Well they evolve, I guess.

Alex Tuner now and then. Feel any difference?

Look at Alex and his half covered face, also Jamie with his beard and new hairdo. They've grown even older.
Anyways I love these shots, the tone and lighting are simply pretty.

Take a listen too!
Cool Tracks : Cornerstone, Potion Approaching, Crying Lightning.

She was close,
And she held me very tightly
Till I asked awfully politely,
"Please, can I call you her name?"
Cornerstone/Arctic Monkeys

The Scattered iTunes Library

Yang namanya minta maaf itu harusnya dibarengin sama keinginan untuk membuat keadaan lebih baik. You don't go around telling people "I just burned your house down, sorry. Why, you ask? Well just because I want to." right? It's pointless, it's asking the other person to put up with what you're doing without considering the fact whether he/she wants to or not. It's selfish. If that's the case, save your words for yourself, cause deep down inside you actually ignore what that other person feels, and in the end it doesn't really matter for you whether the answer to that "Sorry" is a yes or a no. Go ahead, be selfish, but just please stop putting that mask to make yourself feel better. I won't buy it.

Fives

5 things you think about yourself
Accurate way?
Lyrical, shy, independent, passionate, laid back
Emo way?
Sensitive, moody, longing, loner, loving.
Narcissistic way?
Creative, good listener, self-learner, kind, ...uncommon?

5 things that you do
Stupid things that made you in accident?
Nothing really
The most extreme thing you do?
Trying to slit my skin just to see how deep i can go haha
Something you regret in life?
Not having any particular extracurricular stuff mastered
Your current goal in life?
Got myself into certain college major
Your quote/motto of the day that you do?
"Words are just empty letters"

5 things about your appearance
Which body part you like?
Fingers? haha
Which body part you dislike?
My thighs and calves
Acne problem?
Fortunately nothing serious
If you have a tattoo, where will you put it?
One side of my neck, like Pete's hehe
Fetish?
Nothing really

5 more things about you
Currently likes?
Cereal with cold chocolate milk
Currently dislike?
The weather
Weakness?
Sloth
Ability?
Enduring loneliness
Extra ability?
Err, i can wiggle my ears?

Your 5 confession?
I dance to almost every beat when I'm around my sister
I think my voice doesn't sound so bad when I sing
I have issues with self-confidence
I'm always interested in things related to suicide
I have plenty of very unbelievable confessions left but I'm saving it for my true friend. Ha.

Live Among The Gorillas

Ted : ...It's like I'm trying to preserve something that's already gone
Marshall : Preserving something that's already gone. Sounds like environmental law.
Ted : I don't know. We struggle so hard to hold on to these things that we know are going to disappear eventually. And that's really noble. But even if you save every rain forest from being turned into a parking lot, well, then where are you going to park your car?

How I Met Your Mother, S01E17

Oh Well

How am I doing these days?
Nothing much, really.

• I'm okay.
• My feet touches the ground.
• I eat a lot, four times a day sometimes, not to mention the sodas and the teas.
• Mostly I pay attention in classes.
• I sign in rather a lot to WLM.
• I read people's tweets when I'm bored.
• I constantly find myself craving for frozen yogurt and sushi, but having difficulties in fulfilling it.
• My recently played song is most likely be Lenka's
  
• My cursing is getting worse by days and I'm trying to fix it.
• I try to just be impulsive cause apparently, it feels good.
  

How are you?

A Tearaway

The thing about a heartbreak is that, of course, it hurts. The tears may run dry, but the pain, stays. There will be a time when the only thing that walks you to your sleep is your tear. But then you'll wake up in the middle of the night, and the first thing that crosses your mind and heart will be the pain, again. Then it'll be hard for you to get back to sleep, cause your brain is busy playing your certain pieces of memory with a certain person constantly be the center of the scene. That's when your heart aches, a lot. You started to cry again, just so your eyes will be weary enough to get you back to sleep.

Then the morning comes... It may be hard for you to get up, to face the day differently, independently. Maybe your tears will come out again, so will the pain. You're hurt, and emotionally left with no options.

You'll try to start to build a part of your so-called little world back. There will be a moment when it feels like the pieces are finally completing each other, but it'll only take a second, a smile of a certain someone that your brain flashes you, for it to fall right apart again. Then you'll start from scratch, over and over again.

You're in such a pain, everything aches. You share with your friends, but that’s just as far as how it can get. You don’t really spill the core of your heart out, simply cause you don’t think they’ll understand how much it aches. They give you hugs, but only a very few feels real. You waited till your day’s done to cry, cause they expect you to get better. You’re trying, but it doesn’t get you too far.

Erasing every little trace of the memory seems impossible, and you're not sure whether you can do it. You’re trapped, you can’t seem to let go, but to keep on holding to every bit of the past hurts too much. You want things to go back to the way they used to, but you’re not sure if it’s worth fighting for, not if it will end with the same pain as it does right until this second.

It’s your first cut, it’s the deepest. It’s not a breakup, it's a heartbreak.

Everything Will Be Okay

Sorry for not being around, I'm busy building a huge tall wall that keeps on collapsing over and over again each time I catch a breath--thinking at last it's completely build.

Diving deep, I'll write more when the sun greets me.

Have a nice day :-)

The Night Sky Rained Colours

"Cause both option hurt, so I chose to cry without you."

Shot by arki@sxc

You'd Want to Know This

There was a study done where a control group of 100 people were divided into two.

50 people watched very funny, tears-of laughter type movie.
50 watched a very sad and tears of compassion type movie.
At the end of the sessions researchers collected the "happy tears" and the "sad tears" with eye droppers.

They found that "happy tears" are made up of brine, salt water and not a great deal else.
However the "sad tears" were found to contain the very same chemicals and enzymes that are found in tumors, ulcers and other such lumps and bumps and sicknesses through out the body.

This test concluded that the body, when crying in sadness etc is literally flushing out all of the toxic-chemicals that accumulate and are a part of the sadness/heartache experience.

Therefore if one holds back those tears, those toxic-waters will find somewhere else to deposit themselves and prolonged lack-of-crying-release will guarantee that the body will accumulate a huge amount of internal pollution and toxicity that should have been released through the tears.
Is it any wonder that the eyes sting so much when we hold back our tears?

No wonder men die earlier than women.

Cry your heart out when you are sad, lonely, alone, depressed,
and any other not-so-good emotion. It's good for your health, apparently.

Reposted from here

What Hides Behind Your Back

You know that you might have had helped someone and don't even know it? As weird as it sounds, it's possible. So keep spreading the words, keep talking, keep saying what you heart feels true, cause that may just be that something that someone out there really needs. Perhaps they don't talk back to you, but they thank you, deep down in their hearts, they really do.

"You might have saved someone's life, and don't even know it."

Shot by Rachmat Lianda

A Bouquet of Anemone

I'm emotionally tired these days. Trapped in a situation but too scared to take a step forward and make things up. A situation I might not explain in public cause I pity myself too much for having it I'm embarrassed. Something I can't share even with people that understand me the most.

I try to be busy, try to loosen my mind off by focusing on other subject. But really, I got to admit that this sucks. I'm not good at not being emotional, I'm not good at not over-thinking stuffs, I'm not good at bearing pain... I really feel like crying, I just realised how lonely I actually am.

...And I'm sad that I just found out how wonderful MJ's voice is after he's gone.

Shot by Rachmat Lianda

25 Random Things Of Me

...If you're interested. Eh I mean, whatever, here they are;

1. I have my point of view changed by certain TV Series.
2. My current favourite place to dine is Sushi Tei.
3. I've actually made several attempts to write a novel.
4. I'm craving for killer heels at the moment.
5. I'm afraid of getting new haircut.
6. My favourite line from Seabear's I Sing I Swim is "You left your winter clothes and your teeth marks in my skin". Especially the teeth marks part :--)
7. I can't sleep with the lights on.
8. My braces stopped me from nail biting, I used to do it a lot.
   
9. I haven't watch Harry Potter's 5th series.
10. I hate the word tweeople. No offense, I just hate it.
    
11. I'm afraid I'm not as smart as I thought I am.
12. I love it that Peter Doherty pronounces things unclearly.
13. I'm getting sick of chicken nuggets.
14. Grocery and book stores excite me.
    
15. If I really have to choose, I'll pick mineral water over Cola.
    
16. I'm good at DDR.
17. I suck at taking care of my stuffs but I get emotionally involved with them easily.
18. I did remember all--I mean all-- lyrics to Green Day's songs, but they slowly slip away nowadays.
19. Truthfully I kind of like how my family is at the moment and I'm not sure if I want it to change--but it's definitely going to.
20. Some people have mistaken me as a smoker because of my voice. Really.
21. And some thought I dye my hair cause apparently its color turns to reddish purple under the expose of the sun.
    
22. I like the song Silent Night though I'm a moslem. I wonder if that's okay :--/
23. Waking up with an unread Good-Morning text from my boyfriend makes me happy.
    
24. A long long night drive with my boyfriend will be pleasant :--}
    
25. I love romantic stories no matter how cheesy they are.

If you have time why don't you write your own version of the list? I'd love to read it, really.

A Bless & A Curse

"At some point in life there will be a room only a certain someone can fill"

Shot by Rachmat Lianda

Come To Think of I-Love-You...

"You can be in love and you can be in a relationship.
But they're not always the same thing."

-Iain Thomas

Koper Kami Butuh Tanda

A : Mbak, pita birunya 5 meter ya
B : (menulis) Ini bonnya, langsung bayar ke kasir aja
A : Terus mbak pitanya bisa tolong dipotong setengah meter-setengah meter ngga?
B : (dengan muka asem) Ngga bisa, ngga ada ukurannya
A : Ooh, kalo dipotong semeter-semeter terus dibagi dua bisa?
B : Bisa
A : ... (tertawa dalam hati)
B : ... (salting)

Moral cerita : ingatlah bahwa satu dibagi dua adalah setengah.

Oh-My-God

Pete Doherty--Peter Doherty has just released a solo album!

Titled Grace/Wasteland

The Guy

Best Tracks so far : Sweet By and By, Sheepskin Tearaway.
Aaww I'm so excittteeeedddd, brb exploring the super cool twelve new tracks~

"So, give me your surrender...
There are other ways to kill a prey
But then it would never mend you
It's like trying to dry your eyes in a pouring rain"
Sheepskin Tearway/Peter Doherty

Ten of Those Things

As mentioned, here I write ten bad habits of mine. Kind of surprised I actually had ten bad habits. I mean, maybe people do, but listing it made them feels... real. Whatever, here they are~

1. I procrastinate everything …Even eating.
2. I unconsciously like to play with my hair and I just look disgustingly inappropriate every time I do that.
3. I curse, a lot. Even the littlest thing like unable to open a ketchup sachet can trigger my curse.
4. I always look for a shortcut before actually trying to finish everything. Sometimes I end up finishing the task twice the time needed not using the shortcut cause it take me rather long to give up on finding the shortcut.
5. I’m nervous and paranoid. I don’t know, I just am.
6. I can’t stop once I sit in front of Nox. Horrible, I think my sight had gotten shorter because of this. It’s just that there’re so many things to explore in the cyberspace!
7. I can’t keep my files organized. Mostly I prefer starting over than to reorganizing the files. I mean, throw it all away and start with blank space. I lost plenty of treasured documents because of this. *Sigh*
8. Verbally, I like to add “pisan” at the end of adjectives which means “Very-something” in English. It’s a West Javanese dialect. This doesn’t sound too good if spoken in my nowadays social activities. My sister gave me this--darn you!
9. I bring Aiden to the bathroom simply because I need music even on shower. Weird. It fell on the wet floor once.
10. I drink a lot of Coke. It helps me release my stress, also headaches. For addition, it tastes awesome!

...So, do we share something in common?
No tags, have a nice week! :--}

What Excites Me Nowadays

Weey how are you people? It's been quite a time since i talked to you last, and I missed a lot of thing cause I was losing touch with the cyberspace days before yesterday. Well, fortunately I have things to be excited about these days, and they're good.

The biggest of all is probably The Sims 3, which is like, "Man, whoever created this, they're geniuses!".

In third generation of The Sims not only you can visit your neighbors but also you can travel throughout the city-- i mean walking around, not just, travel like in The Sims 2.

That's the Grocery Store

And that's the retro dining place

And your Sims will have specific traits, the personality is even more complex, and real. You should try it, you won't be sorry. Well the game approached me not in the right time, I was in the middle of my exam week so it kinda ruined my study-plan. But anyways, I all passed that and now I can play it with no time limitation. Woo hoo~

And after I waited for five years, finally Green Day launched their new album. It's titled 21st Century Breakdown.

Well most of you maybe don't know this but i'm a big fan of Green Day since I was in 7th grade. Anyways, the album is good and knowing that most reviews gave the album lots of stars just make me happy. For the best tracks I would choose Viva La Gloria! and Last Night on Earth. But 21Guns and 21st Century Breakdown is good, too. Beautiful tunes, go listen to it! Now I'm all excited about diving into the lyrics *squeals*.

Green Day dudes

Next is, I've replaced Mox with Nox and it feels good, really really good. I'm still using Windows, though. I think I'm too comfortable with this OS to convert to Mac. Everything feels superfast, no more sound jam everytime I launch Adobe Photoshop simultaneously with iTunes, no more minutes of startup, no more cursing at the screen! I'm in love with technology.

And I installed the Adobe Photoshop CS4. It's cool, even better than CS3. Everything is grouped, nicely arranged, and the effects are smoother, from what I've tried.

Even just desaturating can be tricky

Well I've only used it once so far, but I know it's good.

And I found this hilarious duo at YouTube, Smosh. Do you know them? They make short movies and post it at YouTube periodically.

They're so funny, I spent last night watching them till 2am. Go search for and watch them at YouTube or visit their website.

So if you're interested in things I'm rambling about above, why don't you try them? and after you're done, share what do you think about them here!

I think that's all. I'll be doing a tag from Ravi in the next post, it's about my 10 Bad Habits B-)

Have a nice Sunday, people. Smooch away!

Mox Jr?

Okay, what makes today is not 100% shitty is, I have a chance of getting a new personal computer since Mox is definitely getting older and slower.

So I'm thinking about what kind of personal computer would I want? First thing on the list is, well, iMac

Maybe I've got too comfortable with XP but i always have this crush with Apple's products. That i(add a noun here) is brilliant. But then I realized that the major point of why I like Apple's products is the design, the outer look. I want something... simple, elegantly simple. Unusual. Pretty. Not black, maybe?

But the budget is kind of tight so... I don't know.

About the spec, first priority is speed, then graphs, then sound. I want to be able to play the sims 3--which Mox isn't able to run. I don't know what I should get, chance like this maybe will take years to come again so I need to use this one rightly, fully.

Oh, money.

Sorry for the bad structure, I'm having a rough day.

I Don't Get You

Don't love too much you'll end up hurting. People say that, same thing as don't hope too high, it will feel worse when you got to fall. But is it really so? To me they sound like a person who's afraid of taking chances, a person who likes to play it safe.

Maybe people tell you that cause they care about you, so you won't get hurt.
But is it really the only point? Not getting hurt?

I hate you, you're not fair. How could you? Now suddenly you build up a tall huge wall, a wall that has never been there before as far as I'm concerned--and I'm always concerned.

I could never act the same, ever again.

...How could you? (sob)

50 First Reactions

This is called 50 FIRST REACTIONS... Type what comes to your mind FIRST whenever you hear these 50 words. Don't think and don't go back and change. Doesn't matter how random just type it! Re-post it for all of your friends.

1. Beer: Heineken
2. Food: Eat?
3. Relationship: Mbe
4. Crush: 9th grade
5. Power Rangers: The uh, the yellow one.
6. Life: Pull it off
7. The President: SBY
8. Yummy: Gum
9. Car: Driving like it's nothing special
10. Movie: Wolverine
11. Halloween: ...Pumpkin
12. Sex: Fuckers
13. Religion: Mosque
14. Hate: Drama drama drama
15. Fear: Lily Allen (d'uh)
16. Marriage: Huge, white bride dress
17. Blondes: Hair, of course?
18. Slippers: Wearing it
19. Shoes: Heels
20. Asians: Slanted eyes
21. Pastime: The Click Five
22. One night stand: Barney Stinson
23. My cell phone: Kicked it accidentally, asphalt, a moment ago.
24. Smoke: Smokers who look cool smoking (which are pretty rare)
25. Fantasy: Squall and friends
27. High school Life: Working on it
28. Pyjamas: Cotton
29. Stars: Gunung Bunder
30. Center: Circle
31. Alcohol: My pink chemistry module
32. The word LOVE: Magical
33. Friends: Faces
34. Money: Me taking a bath in a tub full of money
35. Heartache: Rejected
36. Time: Clocks, especially the old, antique looking ones.
37. Divorce: Rings
38. Dogs: I wish they're not religiously forbidden
39. Undies: The Sims
40. Parents: My mom
41. Babies: Little socks and clothes
42. Ex: Failed romance attempt
43. Song: Norell
44. Color: A Color palette
45. Weddings: Western styled ones, with maid of honor
46. Pizza: One with blueberry topping, like the one in Who Has The Biggest Brain. Shoot.
47. Hangout: People standing in front of a wall full of graffitis, some of them hold a skateboard
48. Rest: Sleep
49. Goal : Soccer
50. Inspiration: Hairspray

...Oh I'm so random.

My Kind Of Game

1. Restaurant City by Playfish

Build your very own restaurant...


...Decorate them as you wish...


...And run for recipes!

Oh God, that simple yet addictive.

2. Who Has The Biggest Brain by Playfish

Absolutely the funnest way to train your brain

Analyze your brain capability and find out how big your brain is by simply playing 4 entertaining mini games!

So, whose brain do you have? :--D

Play them for free at Facebook! (D'uh I sound like a commercial break)

Be right back, got to play some more.
Have a nice day, people! :--*