It Was Dramatic

Before today, it's been quite a while since the last time I really cry because of my feelings.

There was a moment when I thought crying feels good, like giving a break to yourself and letting all insecurities out. That was when I cry zero time, and maybe that's why I thought it's good, cause I didn't really know anything about crying. I don't know, I am weird.

Just a short moment ago, crying started to be a big deal for me. I don't want to cry over small things, I don't want anyone whoever that is get used to the scene of me crying, I hate to cry when it's not just myself to see and hear me sobbing. Moreover because crying is really exhausting and if at last I sleep after I cried, I will have this terrible headache and swollen eyes once I wake up.

Yet that's what happened today. And now my head hurts. My eyes too.

At the moment things are at ease. They're okay.
Oh well... But when it comes to me that's yet to be a yes.