Live Among The Gorillas

Ted : ...It's like I'm trying to preserve something that's already gone
Marshall : Preserving something that's already gone. Sounds like environmental law.
Ted : I don't know. We struggle so hard to hold on to these things that we know are going to disappear eventually. And that's really noble. But even if you save every rain forest from being turned into a parking lot, well, then where are you going to park your car?

How I Met Your Mother, S01E17

Oh Well

How am I doing these days?
Nothing much, really.

• I'm okay.
• My feet touches the ground.
• I eat a lot, four times a day sometimes, not to mention the sodas and the teas.
• Mostly I pay attention in classes.
• I sign in rather a lot to WLM.
• I read people's tweets when I'm bored.
• I constantly find myself craving for frozen yogurt and sushi, but having difficulties in fulfilling it.
• My recently played song is most likely be Lenka's
  
• My cursing is getting worse by days and I'm trying to fix it.
• I try to just be impulsive cause apparently, it feels good.
  

How are you?

A Tearaway

The thing about a heartbreak is that, of course, it hurts. The tears may run dry, but the pain, stays. There will be a time when the only thing that walks you to your sleep is your tear. But then you'll wake up in the middle of the night, and the first thing that crosses your mind and heart will be the pain, again. Then it'll be hard for you to get back to sleep, cause your brain is busy playing your certain pieces of memory with a certain person constantly be the center of the scene. That's when your heart aches, a lot. You started to cry again, just so your eyes will be weary enough to get you back to sleep.

Then the morning comes... It may be hard for you to get up, to face the day differently, independently. Maybe your tears will come out again, so will the pain. You're hurt, and emotionally left with no options.

You'll try to start to build a part of your so-called little world back. There will be a moment when it feels like the pieces are finally completing each other, but it'll only take a second, a smile of a certain someone that your brain flashes you, for it to fall right apart again. Then you'll start from scratch, over and over again.

You're in such a pain, everything aches. You share with your friends, but that’s just as far as how it can get. You don’t really spill the core of your heart out, simply cause you don’t think they’ll understand how much it aches. They give you hugs, but only a very few feels real. You waited till your day’s done to cry, cause they expect you to get better. You’re trying, but it doesn’t get you too far.

Erasing every little trace of the memory seems impossible, and you're not sure whether you can do it. You’re trapped, you can’t seem to let go, but to keep on holding to every bit of the past hurts too much. You want things to go back to the way they used to, but you’re not sure if it’s worth fighting for, not if it will end with the same pain as it does right until this second.

It’s your first cut, it’s the deepest. It’s not a breakup, it's a heartbreak.

Everything Will Be Okay

Sorry for not being around, I'm busy building a huge tall wall that keeps on collapsing over and over again each time I catch a breath--thinking at last it's completely build.

Diving deep, I'll write more when the sun greets me.

Have a nice day :-)